Ruminating further on *the idea that our deepest desire is often bundled in our darkest fears…
What is it about the thing we love that make us so afraid?
Why does our love of something leave us feeling so naked and vulnerable? So much so, that we often hide from it or avoid trying the thing we want most desperately in the world?
It’s a strange phenomenon
To reach for our greatest desire, we run the greatest risk of failure.
Truly failing- not just in an external sense of the word. A deep failure that we feel in our souls.
To run the risk of failing at something we love is the most vulnerable place we can be because we expose ourselves fully to pain.
It is easier, then, to succeed (and fail) at things we don’t care that much about.
This is why we often find more success in shadow careers- that is, careers we didn’t really want, but that seemed easier than going for the career we truly wanted. It’s easy to take risks in a career that spiritually means nothing to us. But it is oh so difficult to do the thing that would bear the most meaning to our souls.
Our fear is always showing us what that thing is.
So if you’re unsure of what you want, you might ask yourself instead- what am I most afraid to do?
That, of course, is the thing you must do, above all else.